I just got back from one of those staff retreats that make you feel you can really do something with the team that's around you. For some (including me who is not a big "meetings" guy, but is growing into that role) it can be grueling. 11 hours of hashing, rehashing, coming full circle back to the original....hash! It can be absolutely exhausting. Especially if your in a room where you feel almost everyone thinks different then you do. See when your talking business, you WANT that. Different types of thinking. Churches are on a kick of "saying" they want that, but in all reallity they all look, dress, act, think, plan, vision very similar. I have been a product and employee of such a system. I have worked at larger churches then "Beth" (Bethlehem Assembly of God, Valley Stream NY) , but very much surrounded by alot of "myselfs" <---(jimmy word) 
                               Until now. 
     "Beth" is the girlfriend I never thought I'd end up falling in love with (get over it, God described Israel as a she/her and the affecionate love for her) . I mean I knew I'd love aspects of her, but in the end wondered how long this relationship could/would last. Then 2 things began to happen a couple years ago. 

1. I began to see who I was NOT, and who they were, and recognized MY need to become more of THEM.

2. I realized who THEY were NOT, and saw the connection oh how God wanted to use ME to influence THEM.
(to do this, you must be intentional PRIDE KILLERS)

The Outcome:
THEY, and ME is becoming US (Forgive my improper use of the inglesh langwage)
 Which means at 34 years old, and having been in ministry for almost 15 years that I'm finally understanding the principle behind 1 Cor: 12:4-7, 11-13 "Diversity in Gifts". 

In a retreat with many different gifts, make ups, personalities and preferences I realized several key points.

1. God WILL (or may want to) call you to a place different then you, and outside of your personal preference. (this seems to be a dying thought amongst emerging leaders)Pastors, resist the urge to hire YOURSELF, or a yes man. I really love and respect my pastor who well knows our differencs, and celebrates them. 

2. There is power in the commingling of those who are (Progressive, modern, traditional, Post-modern, Hipster and whatever ridiculous category we can put on a demographic). 
Again 1 Cor 12:4-7.
3. THIS type of thinking, and intentional gatherings (even staffings) is a true remedy for transforming and reaching communities with the relevant gospel.


jIMMy
 
     If you would have have told me 10 years ago, I'd be a maniac trying to find a Barbie camper for my youngest daughter ( side note: This is year 2. I'm trying not to have to sell a kidney to afford it) If you would have told me I'd be on such a mission, a ravenous mission. I would have told you.......That you were probably right! As a teen-ager I couldn't wait to be a dad. I planned how I would act, how I would discipline my kids, and most importantly how I would love, affirm, and care for them. See right where I am at, is right where I dreamed I would be. With a amazing wife who loves me more then anyone has or probably ever will. 3 fantastic kids, who, each in their own way hold such a special place in my heart. With a job that takes everything that I am,  requires everything that I am not, and couldn't imagine living without. See I did 3 things growing up.


1. I prayed for these dreams.
(everyday I prayed for my wife, my kids, and even the dad I would be). Now I pray for the spouses and grandchildren (not weird at all).


2. I studied others who were "living" my dreams.
(Anyone who had remotely a life that resembled something I prayed for, I studied, took mental notes, and tucked them away into my heart.


3. I worked (and still work)  my dreams
(I didn't just wait for these dreams to come to me, I worked them. I sought a woman who would complete me, raise kids in a way that they will respect, honor, (and worship me....just kidding).


(Remember: What we call dreams, God defines as purposes. When we speak of dreams and aspirations, it's not by OUR doing, but finally by us catching up to God's awesome plan for us.


Dream on...
Jimmy...